3.8.08
it's been a whopping long time since i blogged. well...i'm not a regular blogger anyway. hm. so much has happened these few months and i really dont wanna dweel on the stuff that happened. but just felt so irritated suddenly that i decided to blog, or even log in to my account after a zeallion years. lol. ok. why do i feel so vexed and irascible now? just because after i read that blog entry? i dont even know if it is targetted at me but well...after reading the several entries i began to think if i had made the wrong choice to befriend the person. i feel like i dont really know the person anymore. not that i even knew that person very well in the first place. i feel so....argh. it's not the first time i had such a thought. does the person want to reveal his/her true character? i have no idea. Z appears different in front of me. i just want to know more about the person but somehow i dont seem to able to get the conversation ongoing. i'm rather sick of dominating the conversation. i wonder why Z has more to talk about to Z's friends. cant i even establish a common topic to talk to Z? what my bro said is true. he said that he needed to find someone whom he can talk to, someone on the same level in terms of intellectual ability and way of thinking. i thought of what he said and perhaps i should apply that to my friends as well. i want to share my thoughts with people who can understand what i'm thinking and so far i guess only my best friend is able to do so. well, thats why she's my best friend right? ~duh. sigh. what's wrong with trying to understand you better as a friend? but everytime i ask about how's your day and what are you doing...etc you dont give me a specific answer but a generic one like 'slacking lor' or 'boring'. i dont mind you telling me every single thing that has happened during the day, what your friends said, what u ate, whatever that has happened. those may seem like trivial matters but it helps me to understand you better, u get it? i tell you about the things that revolves around me because i thought you would want to know more and i want to know more about you as well. all right. this not only applies to you but to all my close friends. i want you to be my second best friend but it seems like you arent and i dont know if you can. i just read your blog entry and i was like...god... do i even know this person? you never tell me anything that you wrote on your blog. do you expect me to read your blog everytime to find out about what happens to you? if you dont blog frequently i guess i wouldnt even know about what you think at times and whatever that had happened to you. can't we just talk about things and share about each others' lives? isnt that what friends do? isnt that what couples do?
i'm so sick of this.
**twistableturnableman** @ 21:19.
